Well, I lost 5 pounds and immediately stopped journaling my food or watching portion sizes. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. Part of me just doesn't care anymore. To hell with trying to lose weight. It's too bloody hard. Another part of me says, "Never give up! Never surrender!" It says, "I want to walk, swim, shop." I have a doctor appointment today and a therapy appointment tomorrow. I hope that something will kick in and I can get back on the wagon.
I don't deal well with emotions or stress. I immediately want to eat to make it "all go away." Therapy says you need to "stay with" your emotions. That you are eating to suppress them and suppressing isn't good. Well, they are too bloody intense. So I try to find (healthier) activities to do instead. And they work. But then I hear that "you have to stay with your emotions" again. So I'm locked in this battle of not being able to handle those intense emotions yet not feeling like I can do anything about them because that would be "suppressing."
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This whole "stay with your emotions" thing has been coming up at our house too, for my girls. I haven't got any real answers, but the thing that seems to be helping them is journalling. Write it out and get through it. Drawing might help too. Way to go on the 5 pounds down! Hope things pick up for you soon. (and I'm still eating the junk food. I haven't learned much at all!)
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